At the RU Recovery office, we are blessed to receive testimonies from people who have learned about Jesus through the RU Recovery Program. Below is one of those letters. It blessed us and thought it would do the same for you. RU is a faith-based addiction ministry designed to help direct people to a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, as He is the only Truth that will make free. It is our desire for a person to not only have a sober life…but have a Victorious Life in Christ!
“At 31 years of age, I started using prescription pain pills…”
I wasn’t always, a “bad person.” I had a good loving family that raised me right. I wasn’t always a drug addict, a liar, or a thief. But that did come. It came late in my life, but when I started using drugs, my whole life changed, from what I thought was bad, to the worst possible.
At 31 years of age, I started using prescription pain killers, because I was in a lot of pain. My heart was broken. So, what better to fix pain, than a pain pill? I just happen to run a cross a bottle one day looking for something else. But, when I saw the bottle of pills, I thought, “Hey, it’s worth a try. Surely these will make me feel better.” And…they did. They really worked. I was happy, I had energy and I wasn’t crying all the time. It was a miracle.
I kept those little miracle pills close at all times. When I ran out, or got close to running out, I’d panic. I went to different doctors to get them, but I was taking so many every day, that I’d run out often. Then I started buying them off the street. After that, I was in a position to get a doctor’s DEA# so then a friend and myself started calling the drug into the pharmacy ourselves. But, still there were times, when I’d run out of that “Miracle Pill” and when I did, I was awful.
[su_pullquote]He simply said, “I forgive you – your past is under the blood.” That amazes me to no end! To think that I am loved that much, even though all I had done. He loves me anyway![/su_pullquote]The withdrawals had me thinking I was going to die – and my body felt the same way. These withdrawals were not only physical, but mental also. My attitude began to change, and my behavior and even my morals weren’t the same as they use to be. I started, begging, borrowing and robbing. I did almost anything it took to get the money I need to get drugs. Robbing people and stores and stealing checks and forging people’s names. And, of course, eventually I started coming to jail.
I have been In and out of jail for the last 8 years. Every time I came to jail, I’d meet new connections for drugs, or new hustles. Every jail stay, I’ve gotten worse. I started using cocaine and meth with the pills. Then I started smoking crack cocaine.
Everything went from bad to the bottom of the barrel then. The drugs got stronger, and my jail stays got longer. What I thought would help take away the pain…only caused much deeper and stronger pain.
This time is the longest time I’ve ever done. I have to parole out. But, this time something happened to me. I was at my wits end and broken. It felt like no one cared about me. I was truly lost and alone. This is when I heard about RU. It is at RU that I reached out for the One Who said He would never forsake me. I poured my heart out to Him, told Him how awful I was and I knew I wasn’t worthy of Him. I was so ashamed. The guilt was eating me up. I begged for mercy and for Him to lift the burdens off my heart, and to please forgive me and help me to become a better person.
About 3 months later, I had the chance to attend the RU program at a local church. After my 1st visit, I was hooked! My heart was full of joy, peace and love. And all I could do was praise God. That’s all I wanted to do. I felt the change in me on that very first day. I felt the Lord taking burdens off me and giving me peace. And I knew right then that Jesus loves me! Yes, even me! With all my shame and guilt and all those bad things I had done, He simply said, “I forgive you – your past is under the blood.” That amazes me to no end! To think that I am loved that much, even though all I had done. He loves me anyway!
He has given me a new start and I’m going to make the most out of it! I’m going to praise Him, and give Him all the glory in my life…because without Him, I am nothing. I still have struggles, but I am not alone. I deal with my thinking and behavior every day; but by the grace of God, I’ll keep making these changes and continue to get closer and closer to Him in my personal relationship with Him.
Thank you, Jesus, and thank you, RU Ministry!
Friend, He will do the same for you!! Do you desire to have a victorious Christian life? Contact us today that we might help you!
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